I will always be thankful for the beautiful energy of Reiki and all of the many ways it has touched my life.
Reiki has given me faith in my divine essence, showing me the light I cultivate within.
Being attuned to the energy symbols has allowed me to open back up to my intuitive senses, allowing a conscious stream of energy and love to flow through me.
Learning about Reiki has allowed me to develop a deeper sense of compassion for myself and others.
I remember trembling while speaking. Holding my paper, damp from my unsteady hands, I read my notes in front of the class. Public speaking. Blech!
Nothing was less appealing than that.
Often I would enter this surreal, deer-in-the headlights, feeling when faced with talking in front of a group of people. So many times, the memory felt hazy. Like I was a breath away from passing out. Actually, the feeling of passing out was probably because I wasn’t breathing at all. Too panicked to breathe. Oh deer! 😉
I was fortunate to take a wonderful public speaking class in university. I was forced to speak every week. A curious thing happened. I began to open up, the shaking lessened, and my confidence soared.
The act of practice, that was the magic key to being able to speak in front of others. The only way through it, the only way to get better, was to do it.
There are some things that can not be learned from reading. No amount of studying from the (illusion) of safety will bring the experience that practice will.
At some point, you must try, make the attempt. And fail. Yes. The risk of failure is there, and high. But even failure is better than hiding. Particularly if we want to pursue a worthy goal.
Sometimes following our path takes us into the ‘uncomfortable-but-necessary’ zone. It does not (yet) feel natural, we don’t know what we are doing, there we are, feeling raw, vulnerable, maybe even frightened.
The new, but necessary, skill is waiting there for us to keep practicing. To not give up, to not fear starting, to persist throught the efforts of the ego to convince us we don’t really need to, it would be easier if, why don’t you just sit down for a while.
If we can keep going, keep showing up, keep leaping, we begin to see change. This change might be subtle at first, barely a whisper. But then, possibly over night, everything is somehow easier. It clicks.
Now, I love speaking to groups of all sizes. I love the idea of reaching more and more people with this work, which I am so passionate about. I find it inspiring now.
This did not happen overnight. It was a process of practice. Many, many years of practice, failure, patience. I kept on going because I felt it was necessary. Even though I didn’t like it, life kept throwing me in these situations where I had to speak. I got practice.
In the midst of showing up is a huge benefit: the power of practice is that it makes you truly powerful. Everything becomes doable. Everything.
This weekend was the eighth and last class of my first Level I Reiki course, which is an eight lesson course. I developed the longer format for teaching after learning that Master Usui would train his students for years before attuning them to Level I. My intent was to infuse the discipline that comes from practising a new skill back into the format of the western style of teaching Reiki, which is typically taught in a weekend for Levels I and II.
At Level I, I was aiming for teaching my students the basics of energy work, an intro to meditation, and to be able to feel the flow of energy in their hands. By the second class it was overwhelmingly clear that the course would far surpass those goals. Everyone in the course, myself included, had profound and foundational shifts take place in their lives.
We concluded the class with a Reiki share, where one person lays on a massage table and the rest send Reiki healing energy to them. It was then that the sheer magnitude of joy and appreciation flooded through me. It is humbling to teach this work. And it is deeply satisfying to know that I have the opportunity to help others step more fully into their true, magnificent, Divine selves. Tears and laughter flowed in equal measure.
Reiki teaches us to step back from the process and allow the energy to flow through, unimpeded by ego. There is a deep surrendering to the natural healing process and a detachment from the results. Teaching Reiki is a similar, but significantly amped up, process. I got out of the way of what my students were supposed to gain from the course and they received far greater than I could have ever imagined.
I learned so much throughout this process as well. I learned that ego is not just being boastful, but it also plays a part in keeping us small. I had to face the reality that I have developed a life-changing and unique class that has the potential to reach the world. Yes, it is true, I am good at what I do. I had to learn to claim that for myself, because me playing small is not going to help anyone.
I had the opportunity to shift some major mental habits and create new powerful affirmations. I shifted the structure of my life to be more supportive of my purpose. I connected deeply to my spiritual essence and created daily contact with Master Usui, who is an ascended master. All in all, I rocked it!
I will forever be deeply grateful for my students who inspire me on so many levels. The courage and compassion they brought to every class really made it a tremendous experience for everyone. I am so incredibly impressed with their dedication and commitment to the process. I have been very lucky to have had them as my teachers.