Just when I think my heart can’t break any more… It does.
I just heard about the mass shooting in Nova Scotia. And I broke down in tears. Again.
Since COVID-19 started, I’ve been awash in emotions. Part of being a sensitive person, and filled with empathy, is having a lot of emotions about the state of the world. I feel things very deeply. When I hear about world and local tragedies, it affects me greatly. I get overcome with grief when I hear about people passing in tragic and senseless ways. And this latest bit of news is the further breaking open of my heart.
I don’t know anyone in Nova Scotia. My heart breaks just the same. The deepest condolences to all those families. And to every family of someone who has lost someone dear to them. It’s all so much.
Maybe you’re similar? A big-hearted, feeling kind of person. You FEEL. Big emotions. For yourself and you feel the emotions of others too.
Even though it hurts so much in times like these, I want you to stay open. It’s so important to retain those beautiful, empathetic and energetic gifts. Keep reading, and I’ll tell you how to stay in that high frequency and still be energetically and emotionally safe. How to keep doing your soulful, creative work in the world even though you may be going through a lot personally and managing the energy of the collective.
You are divinely guided every moment by the love of the universe.
Focus on your breath.
Inhale deeply to the count of 4.
Then exhale 1,2,3,4.
Watch your breath move in and out.
So if you have walked into a bookstore lately, you probably have seen the **awesome!! happy clap!** display of adult colouring books. Yes, that is right! Permission to colour!!
I spent many hours this summer swooning over the pages of the mandala colouring book I have. Besides being super fun, it struck me that there is so much more going on when we put pen to paper. It is the essence of creation.
So. It is summer. All I want to do is … Nothing.
I’ve been struggling with my to-do list, which is lengthy, and just really not feeling it. I don’t want to ‘To-Do’. I don’t want to do anything.
I want to goof off and play hooky. I want to nerd out on my phone for hours. And when I get tired of that. I want to watch Friends. All of them. I want to fill my mind with cotton candy fluff. I want to doodle and read Facebook.
The struggle is that there are many things, productive-mind-vegetable-type-things, that I really want and need to get done this summer. So, in the midst of all that struggling to be productive, but really not, I called a dear friend.
“Maybe you could just do nothing really well for a week. Give yourself permission to rest. Just goof off, if that is what you want to do.”
So. I gave myself permission to do nothing this week and here I am – productive.
I’m here to say that if you are struggling with procrastination and To-Do-ing, try doing nothing.
No. Really. Try it!
It is wonderful.
Doing nothing is freeing. AND it is wildly productive.
Without trying. Without pressure.
I’m just doing the stuff I like. The stuff I enjoy. The stuff that is beneficial to me and my family. It is easy. I’m being easy in myself and energy has become available for things without trying or forcing.
Now, everytime I do something productive I feel like I am really bad at this doing-nothing thing. I thought with my procrastination skills that I would be way better at it than this.
The truth is, often when we feel pressured we don’t even know what actually needs to be on our list. What we really need is rest, play, cotton candy fluff. That rarely makes the list, but it is tremendously important.
If you are living a creative life, rest and goofing off are important. They are vital to fresh ideas and much needed perspective.
It is the cross-pollenization that is necessary to generate new ideas. We need that restorative break. Regularly. We need the cycle of rest and activity to be truly productive and creative.
So, run an experiment. Goof off this week and see what you get done! ?
Summer is fully here. And with it arrives a dream.
A year ago I started the first draft of my book and since then I have been working on it whenever I could. Now I am lucky to be able to devote my focus and energy this summer on the revisions and edits that will take it from a stream-of-consciousness download to a polished work.
At the same time, I am saying goodbye to a 15+ year career as an environmental risk assessor. It has served me really well, but now is the time to leap into the new.
There is a sound the Universe makes. It is a deep hum.
Listen until you hear the listening.
Only then will you hear it.
When you hear it, it is unmistakable.
It’s voice vibrates your atoms.
It blurs the edges of the concept of ‘you’. Me. I.
In the stillness, allow the waves to roll on through, carrying all your wishes to everywhere all at once.
In this space, this sound, all things are possible.
Imagine tiny golden threads… No… not even that large.
Imagine golden, light-filled strands, tiny filaments of silk. A breath and, afflutter, they swoosh and swirl away. Less solid than a curl of incense rising from the offering.
have been lost,
will you find
what you are looking for.
maybe learning to lose
is the only way to win.
maybe all that is needed is pinky promises, dinosaurs, and aquariums.