The pressure building in the sky makes my head ache and shift. I feel it in my eyes. It is a word, unspoken, on the lips of the sky.
But is it really a storm? Is it disruption or is it renewal?
But how you look at the same moody sky changes everything.
Under its brooding brow lies new sprigs of spring. Fresh air and a softness is there too.
New sprouts are there.
Just waiting for their moment to blossom and burst forth in a riot of colour and fragrance.
If you stop with me. And sit for a bit.
You will see it too.
That is hope, my loves.
It is all waiting there for you.
It can be so easy to hold someone else’s dream in your mind. I can easily see each and every one of you as wildly happy, healthy, joyful, and abundant. It is so easy.
It is likely why crowdfunding and microlending sites are so fun. We get to share in someone else’s dream and be that little angel that helps make it reality. The true success is not so much that the project gets funded, which most do, but that all of those eyes have shared the same vision, if only for a moment.
That brief look is hugely powerful. We can instantly dream alongside all of the other dreamers. We can share in the magic, if only for a moment. The possibilities that can happen are amazing when we dream a better dream for ourselves and others.
I truly believe the litmus test in self healing is to hold the positive vision for your own projects as easily as you hold it for others.
Can you see yourself as wildly happy, healthy, joyful, and abundant? Can you see that dream for you as easily as you see it for me?
If so, huzzah!
Love, compassion, and dreams are just as much yours as they are mine. You deserve this. You are allowed this. You can have this. It is already yours.
I like to tell my students that there is no push or pull in Reiki. It is divine, infinite and intelligent. You don’t need to push it it go faster, you only need to get out of the way of it.
Just like you don’t need to push a waterfall, Reiki is always there, flowing far greater, far clearer, and with greater subtlety and power than we could ever conjure up on our own. It is divinely wise and inherently egoless. No pushing or pulling required.
It strikes me that this principle works in a great many other areas of life.
So, if you find yourself going slower even though you are trying harder, ask yourself, are pushing and pulling too much? Are you allowing the divine support of the Universe in?
Or are you rigidly accepting only one avenue of support?
Are you pushing time to go faster? Cramming more and more in and getting less and less back?
Maybe it is time to allow God/Divine/the Universe (or what you call it) to help you.
Can I get an Amen?
Maybe, just maybe, the universal intelligence that lies underneath all matter has something better for you. Maybe it is all on the way to you the second you say yes to help.
It is yours.
My son made a jarring statement in his usual matter of fact, six-going-on-seven tone, “Smart people don’t ask for help. They don’t NEED help. They can do it by themselves.”
Yikes! How did this thought sneak through?
Of course, I know that he is in his big-boy-I-can-do-it-myself stage. And that he is likely parroting a meme imbedded in popular culture. He refused to believe me when I told him that I asked for help all the time. But, hey, I have time to demonstrate this throughout the next few weeks and years. Not too concerned, but it definitely made me think about this old idea.
I am smart. I ask for help. I am smart BECAUSE I ask for help.
How much does our culture say otherwise?
Well, regardless of all that. I KNOW that asking for help when you need it is the single biggest skill that you need to hone as you go through life.
You need a balance, of course. Helplessness is not what this is about. This is knowing, after a certain amount of effort, that you need more than your own resources and perspective.
I asked a dear friend for help this morning and she gave me some solid advice and a book recommendation that is shifting my view of things to more positive territory. I was able to pull through this blip faster because of the help I asked for.
We humans are social creatures. As much as I avoid the memes of our culture, and as much as I have my own deep spiritual practice, I still need support, connection, and friendship. This is called ‘being human’.
And it is okay to be human!!!
Even the Buddha knew that the spiritual path is tough if you are going it alone. That is why there is the sangha, the spiritual community of others who can support you even as the road of life gets bumpy. Support is necessary.
Just for today… Ask for help.
Ah… To-Do list… You are not my badge of worthiness. You are not my reputation. You are not my source of abundance. Just merely an idea.
I have been working full tilt for quite some time. Don’t get me wrong, I love this work. I dive into it. I am filled with creative ideas non-stop these days. I love helping people. I will stay up till the wee hours of the morning when I am inspired by a project. I love that part of what I do.
This holiday, however, has taught me something valuable. I deliberately didn’t ‘work’. I did my best to put down my phone, turn off the laptop and genuinely spend time with family. It was interesting.
I had an odd adrift feeling. Not tethered to my long list of projects, I felt both free and nervous. Would my business come crashing to a halt? If I am not focused on it all the time will it go of the rails?
Everything is just fine. No one’s hair caught fire. No problems at all.
What did happen was the realization that I need more time completely OFF. It is a bit of me taking my own medicine, for sure.
So in two weeks, expect me to not answer my email or my phone promptly. I will be resting until I am restored!
March! Am I right!?! This month has been a curious mixture of being turbocharged creatively, and yet also oddly frozen in other aspects. There is an odd push-pull that seems to be happening between these crazy eclipses. On one hand, everything is racing forward, on the other, it all has screeched to a (temporary) halt.
Just imagine… the spring equinox, a symbol of the coming light, on the same day as a total solar eclipse (and a new moon too!). Wowza! That is a lot of confusion.
In Buddhism, where the concept of mindfulness originated, the heart is considered the seat of the mind.
The true mind, the wise voice within us, always resides in the heart. Our hearts contain unlimited compassion, wisdom, and Divine connection.
In our western philosophy, the mind has normally been equated with the brain. I have nothing against brains. I, personally, have lots of them! 😉 It is just important to remember that the intellect’s true purpose is to serve the wisdom of the heart. Not the other way around.
So if you live in North America, I recommend changing your meditation practice to heartfullness.
Use the power, wisdom, courage, and compassion of the heart to lead you to stillness. Surrender your clever brain and let your heart lead the way.
Brains only work if they are connected to a functioning heart. Let the heart lead and the brain follow.
March has been a turbo, jetpack of a month for me. The creative ideas have been coming fast and furious and I have willingly surrendered to the amazingness. YogaReiki (now a thing), meditation courses based on my book material, a new practitioner space, book writing, blogging, essential oil meditation, teaching Reiki. It is a really cool space to be, the the centre of my vortex of goodness.
Not a ‘fear’ scary, but a sense of being on what Abraham calls the ‘raw and ragged edge’ of expansion. I really don’t know what is around the bend. I cannot possibly see what is in store for me. I get the sense that it is BIG. Amazing. Phenomenal. I feel it.
It is like the feeling of gravity. The subtle acknowledgement of the pull of the moon on the ocean. Swooping the tide, massively, from shore to shore.
It feels exposing. Real. Honest. Like the fresh air truth brings. But deeper into the heart. Like a soul-filling song, sung from the inside. From the heart.
Part of me is timid. That part wants to know and predict and have guarantees. But mostly, I just want to throw my arms wide and rush in, heart first.
Getting to this point, being able to tell the difference between true fear and the vulnerable edge of growth, has taken me almost 20 years of personal and spiritual work. It is a process. I am in progress.
Now I know the difference. True fear leads you away from actual danger. You know in your heart something is not right, but you stay (or go) anyway. Usually just to be polite. That is fear.
Vulnerability pops up when you are moving out of your comfort zone, towards a life expanding and enhancing experience. You know in your heart, it is right for you. It is a magnetic, resonant pull. Vulnerability is good. It means you are growing. Doing what you mean to, not what you should.
That nervous feeling can be breathed through. Just like a contraction. It rolls on through, right over top of you, and on the other side is courage. The arms flung wide in victory moment you are fearing will never come.
Move toward your vulnerability. Arms open. It is the best way to receive.
I am truly blessed.
My dear friend Samantha Baldwin and I were discussing recently how great it would be to combine yoga and Reiki into a class. With her usual Sagitarian gusto, Samantha looked at the calendar, picked a date, and started planning the class all in one swoop. It was awesome to be a fellow traveler on that ride!
We presented the class yesterday to an amazing group of yogis at Leela Eco Spa. Wow! It was a tremendous honour to be on the teacher side of the studio. Samantha taught her usual, amazing yin class complete with her skilled (and without notes) opening meditation. I did a brief talk about Reiki, answered questions, and made sure we had consent for the Reiki part of the class that would be presented later.
I talked about the power of a positive intention to draw the energy that is needed toward you. And I felt a wave of the energy begin right at the start of the class. Sitting in Reijiho, the intention setting practice in Reiki, I could feel their unspoken intentions collecting in my hands like messages written on slips of paper.
After the asana practice, I went around to each person when they were in Savasana, briefly giving each person Reiki, while the energy flow continued for all of them. Samantha played her glorious Crystal Tones singing bowls and the room was awash in radiant energy.
We finished with a bow to the divine light within and Namaste. The traditional closing of yoga.
The feedback was amazing. The sparkle and softness in people’s eyes was palpable. Everyone floated out like lillies on water. Or perhaps like lotuses. Rooted, yet restful.
The only thing I have to add about the experience is:
This morning, as I was enjoying my coffee, the fire alarm started blaring in the hallway in my condo. I looked in the hallway expecting the usual false alarm, but instead saw a haze of smoke and neighbours trying to figure out the source.
The fire department had been called and I could already hear the sirens from the nearby station (Can I just give a heartfelt shout out to the Calgary Fire Department! So grateful!). I launched into emergency mode and gathered the items that were important in that instant. My pet parrot, Mango, our laptops and cables, the baby pictures, purse, keys, jacket, Reiki class bag. Called my husband to pick me up. Son, safely at school.
I was operating on adrenaline and yet oddly clear headed. The whole time I kept hearing, “That is replaceable. You are not.” Even those things that we think we cannot live without are really nothing compared to our own wellbeing. I took relatively few things with me and I would have taken even fewer if the smoke was any worse.
In the end, it was mostly just smoke, with no damage at all to my unit. But in the middle of it all, and, thankfully, no real world fire experience, it prompted a genuine fear response. The kind of boost of adrenaline that allows you to get away from danger.
After we were allowed to return, after the carbon monoxide levels had returned to low levels, I acknowledged that I was still reeling from the rush. Knowing what I do about the nature of stress, I wanted to return to my normal state as soon as I could.
I put on some essential oil blends that I made for each of the Reiki symbols and I texted and few of my practitioner peeps to ask for some distance Reiki. I told them my intention, “All is well. I am irreplaceable. I am loved.”, and I settled myself in to receive a session. Several people immediately responded and I felt the energy flowing and releasing. After about an hour of resting and receiving Reiki I felt back to normal.
More than that, I felt the energy healing old injuries and moments in the past where I also had a flood of adrenaline in my system.
So, as always I have a new appreciation for Reiki. Every session and every experience has something new to teach me.
I am so much more than my possessions. I am rich in the relationships I have with amazing people. I am grateful for the kind and capable firefighters that are just a few blocks away. I am immensely grateful for my family and all of my many, many blessings.
The clearest lessons are often unplanned.